“momenta aeternae animae – lahazat alruwh al’abadia – רגעים נצחיים של נשמה – is the sacred journey of all souls.” ~ Mystical Prayers
“Love is Your Innate State of Being, Dear Soul.” ~ Mystical Prayers
Dear reader and seeker you may share the articles from this blog freely. But please don’t reproduce this body of works or indeed lower your innate soul state by plagiarising this work for you are greater than such an act. That being said; should you require further one to one coaching and guidance upon your current soul journey you can contact me by clicking here. In closing this paragraph should you wish to purchase any of my self help books in paperback or ebook formate simply click here. Please note this is not a religious blog albeit I’ve lovingly embed translated aramaic quotes because when we truly understand the power of divinity in flow. Truly; God is, I am, we are so.
Just so you know dear soul as you’re perhaps preparing to read on. This is most certainly not a religious site. Although I do spend much of my time in deep contemplation, meditation and inner prayer the result of my formative years and my sacred soul pilgrims journey studying many religions and many spiritual modalities. Saint I am not, fallible mortal I certainly am but with an eye focused upon a greater prize than mortality. That said; I’ve placed some support links in the body text dear reader to help you navigate your own inner quest in building greater humility. Some links practical assimilations of my kismet journey, others mystical stories that derive from said journey. So then you may ask; okay but what am I likely to gain from this blog? Well the answer to that question is perhaps greater personal insight and maybe more. How so you may ask? Well because of my own sacred journey my desire is to create a safe space, a space of mutual understanding with zero codependency. In essence a sacred space where the baggage of low vibrational and energetic tone that once lowered our brow is celebrated for the majesty of its great teaching and healing. Indeed a space where anything and everything is possible, because that is our birthright dear soul. So if that works for you then; welcome onboard, for there is no room for denial of what is within the journey of soul. For it is the journey of absolute truth in pursuit of remembering. Where there is no hiding from the grief of that which arises deep, deep within to re-illuminate ones consciousness. A body of work requiring great love, passion, self-belief and tenacity. For it takes courage to work with and through grief whilst holding the space. For first comes the perceived assault(s), then comes the perceived fall(s) and only then through self endeavour does the true rise prepare ones soul for love in reawakening. A process of energetic dissolution through which the dissonance of grief is transumted into pure gold. The shear depth, breadth and scale of which includes; shock and denial, pain and guilt, anger and bargaining, depression, reflection, shame and loneliness. Lifting of the heart and brow, working through shadow work, allowing and acceptance. All aspects of which unfold on many levels, throughout many and all pulse of life moments. Only to dissolve into a state of unresolved capitulation in readiness for the rising of much softer, ever softer journeys of recapitulation and transformation. That is the great loving journey of soul and re-centering resolution in pursuit of balance. Indeed an alchemistic journey not for the faint hearted dear reader yet a journey that no soul is spared. That said; this blog reflects my souls commitment to the way of the treasures of eternal light and wisdom e.g. Matthew 6 KJV and the way of Ma’at in pursuit of truth, justice, balance and most importantly order. For to truly suffer as soul is to truly know the depraved depths of the abyss. Indeed a state of being and deep inner knowing and calling that births unquenchable compassion anew. Thereafter compassion is truly a deep well of unconditional love dear soul. You see; suffering through a mortal perspective is having what you dont want and not having what you do want. In essence mortal suffering is a state completely lacking in the ability to love. Yet the quest of the soul is to want nothing and to become no-thing, for in no-thing is everything and that is why the dark night of soul and spirit are innately pure love. Indeed an eloquent transfiguration of the existential mortal state captured so profoundly and experientially in the book of psalms KJV. For nowt is new beneath the sun, for; man, soul, spirit in God have lamented, held true and rejoiced together in equal measure. Since; long, long before the word became flesh. Therein and in closing these rather wordy opening thoughts. Know this dear soul. That when the groaning of this place ends and end it must one day. Your mortal yoke of suffering which should you choose to willing transmute through soul into your love of service and sanctifying inner liberation will be your crowning glory. Until then and much and truthfully thereafter you will pass through here many times as soul. Every incarnation an opportunity to do the work and to purify your own and all soul groanings through the logos of peace. For the light is always within and upon you dear soul, so go within and find that inner light for; “I am the voice of one crying in the wilderness, Make straight the way of the Lord.” ~ John 1:23 KJV.
“There are no mistakes on the sacred journey of soul.” ~ Mystical Prayers
So a little bit about Fin to set the scene. I incarnated into the absolute dissonance of neglect and systemic abuse as an infant. Whereupon I took up the archetypes of scapegoat, carer, provider and many more self protection and innately brow lowering roles. Indeed a psyche that set me up for immense physical, emotional and spiritual challenge. That said; I also knew I wasn’t like my birth family from about age of five because I could see entity’s some kind others; monstrously vile and evil. I could move energy with my hands and by thought, I could see and understand the none understandable yet struggled with the nonsense of schools and the hypocrisy I saw weekly within religion and daily within the wider community. I was an innate magician living amongst overt narcissists and those narcissists upon mass revelled in projecting their anger, hate and fear onto me. Hence breaking my heart and in doing so prompting me to go deeper into innate knowing. Such is the apparent way of the evolving soul. I put myself through university working far and wide as an engineer, trouble shooter and latterly asset and then business strategist. All whilst undergoing much loss, inner turmoil, multiple illnesses, diseases and disabilities as well as soul searching and healing on a myriad of levels. Okay thats enough of that, but if you’re truly interested to know more then; click the link sacred soul mysteries further down below to visit my life journey blog. A journey based upon learning the hard way to trust no one but to lovingly embody innate discernment, to question everything not from ego but from the innate state of truth. Indeed to search for truth in all things and above all to go deep, deep within and do the inner work of liberation. For the greatest disservice we can ever do to ourselves is to ignore the obscene, torelate the morally bankrupt and hand over our sovereignty to those undeserving of such respect. We, you, I indeed all of us are sovereign beings and as sovereign beings no one, no thing and no institutionalised entity has any rite or right to that sovereignty. A step change in self-perception which will and always does reclaim personal power and I know that to be so. Such has been my own sacred soul journey. A journey that implored me to undertake much shadow work, the aim? To recenter myself and reintegrate the loving dance of life blue print which was cruelly stolen from me the result of lengthy and systemic abuse. A divine solo soul process of self-empowerment which rebirthed; much greater and much deeper understanding. Indeed a journey that calls my soul in every moment to step out of ego, step out of shame, step out of fear and love every soul holding the space, empowering all those who require inner guidance. Perfect I am not, indeed far from it. I simply pursue a deep innate call of soul. For; “If the light is in your heart, you will find your way home.” ~ Jalal ad-Din Muhammad Rumi.
“Like no one, hate no one, love all with all of your being.” ~ Mystical Prayers
So then to begin. When we truly heal our body vessel, peace is our grace filled prize. For; to truly align with God and Soul, elemental, vibrational and energetic balance is essential. Yet that is a state of being that cannot be achieved through any singular or dogmatic fall of man modality. For the journey into peace is a most sacred journey and by default complete transformation of the old man/woman into the new. A process of multiple deaths and ultimate surrender to that which is absolute soul truth. Indeed the transcendental acceptance of that which was once seen as seemingly unacceptable. How would I the author know that? Seven very long decades of soul searching, seeking and moving into and through truly immense suffering read more at sacred soul mysteries. Yes; seven very intense decades of extrapolated seeking, self realisation; self-investment and extensive suffering experiences applied wisely and compassionately today to help others move safely through their own chaos. Why? Because that was and is the innate call of my soul. An earnest pursuit of the sacred Philosopher’s Stone ( or Philosophia Perennis i.e. philo = lover, sophia = wisdom, perennis = tone, vibration or simply put to be a lover of the wisdom of light). Indeed a pursuit based upon embodying the energetic tone of light wisdom and not simply self-limiting temporal rewards. You see; this is the pursuit of alignment with divinity, indeed the embodied wisdom enshrined within the sacredness of creation. For the call of my soul was and is a journey of self-alchemy. Indeed a divine call embedded within a timeless and unbridled cosmic pulse sun rise to son set. A deeply traumatic, yet; ineffable solo journey of monumental kismet re-balancing, with only one aim. To clear all karmic distortions of love from deep, deep within. For only in true balance and alignment is our soul able to create; our heaven on earth. Thereafter; we serve from our heart for service is our souls love of love. For; “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” ~ Corinthians 13:4-7 KJV. You see; there is and can be no self-realisation intiated by surrendering one’s sovereignty to a cult, a guru or any authoritarian nuance. For such modalities thrive wholly upon control and entrapment. They give only to transfix and withhold purely to propagate dependancy. For they operate through the trickster vibration proclaiming self-limiting falsities as the way whilst simultaneously burying all truth deeply. That is mammons veil, not love. Still worry not for you will always know pure love by its fruit dear soul. For the way of soul is divinely autonomous and by nature seeks and teaches only truth. Forever whole in holy oneness, which truly is the way. To bear that which is unbearable in faith, hope and charity, to serve detached from any desire for self-gratification. Indeed to be and hold the space for others even when our own weariness lowers our brow and life breaks our heart. That is the way through all brokenness dear soul delivering all who would rise to their inner call unto deep inner peace. Indeed the peace that passes all understanding, yes; heaven on earth. You see sorrow does not build the mortal it destroys all vestiges of mortal attachment like rotting flesh. Whilst soul through spirits divinity is content to sit and hold the space with sorrow allowing the old man and the old woman to transition with dignity back onto the inner planes. A journey few mortals would ever request but a journey that all souls must eventually make. For; “only the soul knows what love is.” ~ Jalal ad-Din Muhammad Rumi.
“There is no my truth or your truth, there is only truth.” ~ Mystical Prayers
For those struggling to get their head around the tone of this blog it may be helpful to state that this blog is an insight into my heart expression. Which births from a deep inner call to empower willingly every soul whom I encounter that is seeking resolution from inner dissonance. Now inner dissonance takes on many forms e.g. mild and chronic addictions, illness, depression, financial, self-harm, stress and all manner of self-limiting self-realisation issues et al. Indeed life patterns that in the greater part arise from current life time, ancestral and karmic wounds. Which actively and passively manifest as the inability to deal with, let go of and heal from the fallout of perceived unloving actions including; parental neglect, sexual assault trauma, sectarianism, narcissistic attacks, bullying, medical abuse, work place abuse, anxiety and paranoia. Each and all frequently interrelated which directly and indirectly have devastating effects upon the mind, body, soul and spirit. Assaults to and maladies within the developing psyche and timeless soul that frequently manifest as free floating inner turmoil, suicidal inclinations, need to please syndrome, suicide attempt(s), learned helplessness, post traumatic stress, obsessive compulsive disorders and anorexia. Patterns that are frequently compounded still further by heavy metal poisoning, chemical sensitivities, food intolerances, ancestral trauma, karmic cycles, soul loss trauma, near death experiences, out of body experiences and wide ranging insecurity. Net results which often lead to; homelessness, feeling different, feeling at odds with everything, energetic attacks, kundalini surges, past life traumas, lucid dreaming, psychic disturbances, poverty consciousness and low self esteem. All working in tangent and on multiple layers within the struggling psyche which typically manifest as self-limiting beliefs, self-harm, complex illnesses, chronic fatigue, chronic brain fog, financial issues, relationship issues, awakening crisis, spiritual crisis, imposter syndrome, toxic mind syndrome, toxic body syndrome, dark night of the soul crisis, dark night of spirit crisis. Situations that very often create by default terminal illness, life patterns of continual personal loss, fear, bereavement, grief, shame, anger, career and business issues et al. And I’ve experienced all of those and much, much more at multiple layers mind, body, spirit and soul on my journey through kismet and into much greater; love, knowing, empathy, courage and compassion. So I truly know how difficult this reality can be and thats why I serve. Which doesn’t mean to say that every soul goes through the overwhelmingly grotesque levels of trauma that was and is my soul journey. But it is true to say that we all of us hold grief and trauma whether we’re actively or passively conscious of those deep energetic blocks. That is precisely why I ask all who seek me; “how may I serve you dear soul, helping you to feel safe amidst your unfolding chaos? Such that you can love as you were born to love”. For loving soul is thus; “And blessed is he, whosoever shall not be offended in me.” ~ Matthew 11:6 KJV.
“There is no pain in mortality that is greater than the glow of soul.” ~ Mystical Prayers
You see; when we’re targeted by abuser(s) from an early age and thereafter (and I certainly was). When we’re here to heal and clear our own karmic debts and that of a lineage it’s very easy to fall into the self-limiting energetic tone of imposter syndrome. A syndrome which in essence runs on our abusers and past life blocking programmes that we’re not worthy, we’re here to do all the work and carry all the burdens. We are worthless, we are stupid, we are ugly, we deserve to be poor, we deserve all the loss and all the heartache and all the illnesses et al. But I’m here to tell you today great soul that you are so worthy and believe me your life can be transformed. How you may ask? Well; the greatest journey of every soul is the journey back into remembering. For that is the journey that changes all things and everything in ways that are simply ineffable. That journey takes lots of self-love, its hard work and requires self-care. That journey takes absolute commitment, but that is the way of the sacred journey of soul. So it was, so it is and so it will always be. Therein; allow me to serve and help you great soul to reclaim all of your personal power. For you’re not an imposter indeed far from it you are stardust and capable of achieving anything and everything so believe. Because you’re simply not here to live out an horrendously impoverished soul experience. You’re here to evolve and glow with the illumination of every great sun. Thereafter to uplift, empower and light the way for your soul brothers and sisters. Why? Because that is truly God the Trinity embodied in Soul. For; “We know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” ~ Romans 8:28 KJV. That passage is simply a call to soul to renew its union with spirit deep within. For through spirit God is and where God is; mind, body, soul and spirit truly know and are oneness. You see; “The wind blows where it wills, and you hear the sound of it, but you do not know whence it comes or whither it goes; so it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.” ~ John 3:8 KJV.
“Choosing inner peace over the trappings of dust is the call of soul.” ~ Mystical Prayers
Living a life of Mystical Prayer. The greater the depth of the journey of suffering, the greater becomes ones ability to be; wholly in prayer at rest, at peace. Therein and as I battled with every aspect of my being to stay with the greatest mortal love of this incarnation. She would repeatedly say; “its all going to be well my love.” Sadly however or perhaps not in the grand order of design in our loving case it wasn’t to be; “all well.” For like all mortal things, they all must end, for they are nowt but the vanities of dust. Nevertheless and that said; still deeper, ever deeper into my solo soul journey of immense sanctifying suffering. I truly came to know that; all things will be well for all is always well. Which doesn’t mean that the sorrows of this place will be no more, indeed not. It simply means that; all will be well for all is always well. Therein dear soul if you need my prayers at this time or anyones prayers at this time. Know that all you ever need to do is ask and the work will always be lovingly done, for that is the love of soul to soul. For love in soul is Mystical Prayer in both passive and active motion in every single moment of each chosen moment and that dear reader is oneness. Its not religion, nor is it ritual, its actually agape. Indeed a state of love beyond mortal comprehension for it is indeed divine love. Thus “be still and know that I am God” ~ Psalm 46:10 KJV calls all souls to surrender the false self to the will of God. For then and only then is God truly in Soul, and as the false self falls, miracles unfold effortlessly. That said; worry not about my use of the word God, for action is God, so whatever God is to you focus upon that and illumination unfolds daily. For health, abundance, love and peace are all passive and active motion in motion with all motion birthing and rebirthing the breath of life innately. A rhythm that calls; “Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.” ~ Luke 6:37 KJV.
“The greatest blessings of soul are found on the inner planes.” ~ Mystical Prayers
Closing soul thought(s). The great avatars who have taught in this place were all as if one. They did not say go to and be seen in the temple, church, mosque and synagogue et al., for; that is the way. No, they all taught love is the way, service is the way which means living a life free of mortal attachment. So it is that; the choice is before every soul. A choice to stay in or step out of the machine of mammon. So choose wisely dear soul for your eternal destiny is at stake. For the broad way may seem to be the way for it is easy, materially rewarding and but a stroll in the park. Whilst the narrow way is always a lonely, harsh and immensely challenging journey along the road of sorrows. And thats why the former and latter innately create completely differing sacred soul destinies and the very reason why a cosmically ordained metanoia is required. For; the motal is always seeking the trappings of dust validation. Whilst the soul seeks only sanctified re-perfection through; loving service, amidst eternal timelessness. The latter is a walk through mortal life that I Fin have committed myself too. Saint I am not but seeker and server I am. Such that; “how may I serve?” is my moment by moment and in each moment question of yearning deep, deep within. Not an easy sacred soul journey, but so it is so, yet still I ask; how may I serve you soul? Need help with wellness matters ask, need help with the soul journey ask, need greater inner guidance ask, need deeper insights into the nature of things ask. I serve loving soul so ask. In the interim period be gentle with yourself soul and with every soul you meet along the way and know that all will be well for that is your sole rite as soul. Now if my yatter, yatter has inspired you great, if not so be it, but know one thing. I am as you dear soul the product of my journey, but my journey does not define me it simply inspires me to be a little more, a little wiser and a little kinder every passing day until I return home. A loving journey heaven on earth, indeed an oblation to that which my soul craves deeply and the reason for that is a deep inner knowing, that; “No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us.” ~ 1 John 4:12 KJV.
Finally dear soul, thank you for committing wholly to the journey of wading through this my rather wordy thoughts. Yes I could have made multiple pages and diluted the message here therein, but in truth there is no value in that to you dear seeker. You’re an incredible soul on an incredible journey or you would not be here reading and seeking. Therein I wish you well, I send you my love and offer you this my prayer as your inner guide; “spirit within be my light, teach me how to serve by day and by night, keep my heart safe until it pleases you my lord that I little soul am homeward bound”. Above all things as you work through your great body of soul work; “Do not give what is holy to the dogs; nor cast your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you in pieces.” ~ Matthew 7:6 NKJV.
“Like no one, hate no one, love all with all of your being.” ~ Mystical Prayers
Many desire fame, many desire power, many desire wealth, many desire followers. I desire that every soul be free, every soul be safe, every soul be secure, every soul be healthy and happy and I achieve that through mystical prayer, for I am that, I am. Therein; claim that state too dear soul by becoming “I am that, I am”. Indeed power unlimted expressing the golden rule and manifesting the reality you desire there to be.
“Loving God, Serving Soul, Come, Come Holy Spirit Enlighten Me.” ~ Mystical Prayers
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